It's 5:45 am.

I was fast asleep down here in the family room, woke up to my laptop that was dead (batteries), so I plugged it in and instead of going right back upstairs to sleep, I felt like going online first. I'm a loser. But I feel like writin' in this.

Tomorrow (well..er..today), my sister graduates college. Holy crap. I graduate high school in about a month. I turn 18 in like, 26 days! It's insane!! I remember the day my sister got her letter to go to Point Park... and now she's graduating. I'm proud of her though. A lot of people would not have been able to put up with the crap that Point Park put her through for 4 years without transferring somewhere else. She stuck by it! I admire her for that.

My senior prom is in less than a week... like, by this time next week, I'll probably be sleeping over whoever's house, and my last prom will already be over. I'm so excited though.. I can't think about it being over, it hasn't even happened yet! I know that this year's prom will surpass every dance though, because this school year really has been filled with the most amazing memories with the most amazing friends... and even though half of those people won't be at the prom, it'll be an amazing time anyway! I'm going with Lenny, and it's kinda funny, cause we went to our first HS dance together, and now we're going to the last one together, too. It's obvi gonna be amazing. Duhhh. 6 days! (and I need shoes. and a probably-borrowed-purse. and earrings. and a hairstyle? mehh!).

I have about... erm... 19ish days of school left? That's insane for me... I hardly do homework anymore because there's really no point. Mr. S probably thinks I'm the worst student ever, but, really!... they stopped the grades at the 3rd nine week point for the honors banquet thing, and for the cords at graduation. So really, it doesn't  matter anymore at this point to me. I'll work hard on the stuff that I want to, but I'm not gonna put forward an actual stressful effort on things I don't want to, anymore!

Track season is offffffffficially done for me. :) It has been but, now I definitely don't need to worry about attending anything else other than the banquet!

One Acts are May 18. I really don't know right now how those are gonna go. I think my play should be ok (even though we have not rehearsed much) but that's what these next 2 weeks will be for. We gotta get crackin!

June 1st is gonna be a big day for me, too... I'll be turning 18, attending my last day of high school EVER, and putting on my last high school SHOWCASE. I expect you all to be there!

We find out the Gene Kelly nominations on Monday! We will see how those go.

"Time flies when you're havin' fun". Pi said that best the other day... because time really has been flying for me. This year is just the best ever... I've had the time of my life! And I'll probably cry at prom. Goshhhh.

The wave pool needs to open.
Now.
The weather has been so incredibly beautiful!

I saw Ashley in her show at Schenley last night, "Leader of the Pack". Ashley was so amazing! She definitely "got her groove on" up there. I was so proud of her and I missed her so much!! She really did blow me away with her dancing! She was by far the best dancer in the show :) I hope her and I get to hang out a lot in the summer, I definitely miss the old times!

And finally, ah. Confusion. I've been so confused with some aspects of my life. (I'm pretty sure that more than half of my recent blog entries probably imply that in some sort of way)... I just wish someone would help me figure it out. Meh. Haha

well I'm gonna get some sleep.
I'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezinn.

good...mornin', folks!

<333mel

I have about 23 days left of high school.

It's sad to think about in many ways, but in soo many other ways, it's such an amazing feeling.

I don't wanna deal with high school bull anymore. I mean, I know I will in college, but not with the same stupid people that need to get out of my life right now.

Phew!

Anywaysss.

This week should go by easily... I hope. I have a couple track practices left, and maybe the Pirate game for student council on wednesday (dabaldo-allowing. i don't like him). I gotta rehearse for the play I'm in, and the one I'm directing as well!

My weekends until June 8th are so totally crazy.
I can't wait to hang out with the college kids coming home though! :)
I miss you guys so much! It's been so longg!<333

Alrighty well I'll write soon... sometime... paha. I space my entries out so much these days.

Take a look at those countdowns! That's insane.

oh p.s. The Fray concert got canceled. The Sandcastle Ampitheatre won't be done til like next fall or something, and that's where it was scheduled for, so they canceled it. I'm so upset! I was soo looking forward to seeing them. The ticket people refunded me on my card and said that I could attend a free concert in Columbus or Cleveland with my tickets... yeah... nah... Len and I don't feel like driving to Ohio. Haha. The gas is like the cost of a ticket anyway? Duhhh. Pumped for DMB though! I got my ticket last week :)

<333mel

...I sure as hell do, now.

I'm done with that bullshit. Compulsive liars/horrible people aren't my style anymore... I've moved on once and I'm doing it again.

On a lighter note! Girls Track & Field 2007... Conference Champions!!

Good job girls :) everyone did so amazing and really put forth their best effort!

I PR-ed in some of my stuff, but I was actually afraid of the 100 hurdles due to my tumble the day before, and my fear that history would repeat itself! But, oddly enough, it didn't. But my time wasn't as good as before. Oh well!

Triple jump was fun. I wish I'd done that for longer. It's a good time.

Aaanyway. When Marissa got that 32'11'' in the triple jump, we all went crazy down there, not even knowing if we won the meet or not! Still though, that was amazing that she got first and we were almost positive that at least one of SP's triple jumpers secured third place as well, to make us win the meet/title.

Afterwards, I went to cabaret practice, then to ENP with some fun kids :).

This weekend should be fun! I have my cabaret show on Saturday night, and who knows what after that. Some fun people are coming home from college this weekend too. It will be exciting to see them! :)

It's days like these that I thank god for the people that I have in my life. No matter if it's going to enp with some amazing friends and just having a great time, or coming home and talking online to the one who's always there for anything, it's times like these when the night is winding down and no matter what crappy stuff had happened all day, I can truly thank the heavens that my friends are happy, healthy, and so good to me. I only hope that I can return the favor. I love you guys<3

that's all i've got for tonight.
<333mel

aka Happy Easter<333

last night was insane for like 54987543895 reasons from 7 pm to like 4 am.

but yeah.

i'll blog later.<333

all i can think of is like, why... just... why....

anyway... interesting weekend/couple of weeks so far.

THE MUSICAL... JESUS CHRIST SUPERSTAR... was such a freaking success. I'm so glad that we did so well and made so much off of it. I don't care about how much we made, but how much of an impact it was on so many people that came to see it. I'm so glad that lots of people came...

a big THANK YOU to everybody who attended the show!

I cried so much basically every night, ESPECIALLY sunday... I was totally gone that night...senior rec was insane. Seniors (and underclassmen), those were real freaking tears... I'm going to miss (almost) everything about these past 4 years. You know what? I'll miss everything... cause even the bad moments were learning experiences. In many different ways, each and every one of you has helped build who I am today. And I'm proud of who I am. So, thanks! And I hope most of you can say the same!<333

If I went on about the show, this entry will go on forever. So, I'll stop.

I'm going to college! WVU bound, I am. I'm going to major in Public Relations and either take up a double-major with Theatre, or do 2 minors: theatre and dance. I also plan on trying out for the dance team up there! I'm sooo pumped.

West Virginia University, Class of 2011<33

and I know what most of you are thinking. No, I'm not gonna become a huge drinker... I've never drank in my life! Shuttttup. Hahahaha.

Aaaanyway.

I went to Berk's last night to hang out for a bit with some cool kids, and then I went all night bowling last night with some of my loves. It was a good time......... different, to say the least.........but I had fun with my friends that I love! And I sucked at bowling this time. Last time I was so good! I had an energy drink for this one so I had way too much energy and was throwing the balls in the gutter haha...nice excuse, eh?

I'm gonna go continue to have a rest of an interesting weekend. Fire and hot tub at Ron's tonight! I'm pumppppped.

<333333

oh my god...

cast/crew/pit of JCS= i hate that this is my senior show and my last one... but i swear to god... i could NEVER ask for a better "last high school musical ever".

you all are beyond amazing!

i love you!

p.s. to people outside the cast/crew/pit...COME SEE THE SHOW!

mar 30 - 7:30
mar 31 - 7:30
apr 1 - 2:00

<333mel

why is it the one person you'd never want to hurt
you end up hurting the most sometimes unintentionally?

i hate what i've become
and i especially hate what i've done to you

this whole week has been so stressful
and it has nothing to do with you
things that you do that might bother me
has nothing to do with you
and everything to do with my stupid reaction and overanalyzation

this is ridiculous.

please hear me out when i say how sorry i am.

what? the hell.

iii.. don't need this right now.

hell week is starting at 3:00 PM tomorrow. that means mel's life-outside-the-musical needs to be GOOD so she has no worries other than her worries onstage.

please, santinho, help me with all this nonsense down here.

it's like the one thing i could hold onto when all else crashed... is crashing down with everything else

summer? please hurry up.

I really just want to figure out where I'm going to college. That is all I want in life right now... that's all I want.

I don't know what the hell else I want...

But I definitely need that, right now. I'm driving myself insane daily wondering what I want to do.

My options are alright.. I just don't know what direction to go with them.

It feels like lots of aspects of my life right now are falling apart and I don't know what to do about it...

well. live one day at a time.
for now.. I'm gonna go hang at ryan's with some cool kids.

gotta find my corner..
      of the sky

stop trying to mess with me... seriously

i have got ENOUGH on my plate

so anyways. this is a 10 second break from my senior paper

i'm in typing mode so i'm typing like 700 WAM

this paper is killing meeee. grr

so i got a good letter from otterbein today? hmmmmm!?

alrighty. well... i can't really write.

all i wanna do is getacceptedtoPSUformusicaltheatreandroomwiththeamazingsammi

buttttt.... prob won't happen for me :(

gnite kids